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From Victim to Survivor: Reclaiming the Life That Was Never Theirs to Take

By John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW-S

There is a difference between being a victim and living permanently from the frame of mind of a victim.

If someone abused you, betrayed you, abandoned you, assaulted you, neglected you, manipulated you, or harmed you, you may have truly been a victim.

That is a fact.

Calling yourself a survivor does not change the facts. It does not make what happened smaller. It does not excuse the person who hurt you.

It changes something else.

It changes who gets to write the next chapter.

A victim asks:

“Look what they did to me.”

A survivor eventually learns to ask:

“What am I going to do with my life now?”

That may sound like a small difference.

It isn’t.

It may be one of the most important changes that happens during healing.

First, There Is No Shame in Being a Victim

Before talking about a “victim mindset,” we need to be extraordinarily careful with our words.

A person who has experienced trauma may feel afraid, angry, powerless, suspicious, overwhelmed, or emotionally numb. These responses should not automatically be interpreted as weakness or a character problem.

SAMHSA describes trauma as experiences that can have lasting effects on a person’s mental, physical, social, emotional, or spiritual well-being. It also emphasizes that people respond to traumatic experiences differently. Strong support and resilient qualities can influence how someone responds. Likewise, the American Psychological Association recognizes that trauma can have long-lasting psychological and physical consequences, including PTSD, depression, anxiety, sleep problems, dissociation, and other difficulties. So when someone has been badly hurt, telling them to “stop acting like a victim” can be cruel and clinically misguided.

There are times when surviving is enough.

Getting through the day is enough.

Staying safe is enough.

Getting out of bed is enough.

But there may eventually come a point when survival asks something more of us.

The question changes from:

“What happened to me?”

to:

“What happens next?”

The Victim Frame of Mind

The victim frame of mind is not simply sadness about something painful.

It occurs when the injury becomes the lens through which a person begins interpreting much of life.

Something terrible happened to me.

Therefore:

  • I am powerless.
  • People cannot be trusted.
  • My life will always be this way.
  • There is nothing I can do.
  • Someone else must change before I can heal.
  • My past determines my future.
  • What was taken from me can never be rebuilt.
  • Because I was hurt, I will always be broken.

These beliefs are understandable after trauma.

But understandable does not necessarily mean helpful forever.

One particularly important example is avoidance. VA National Center for PTSD explains that wanting to avoid reminders of trauma is common, but relying heavily on avoidance can worsen PTSD symptoms and make moving forward more difficult. A coping strategy that once helped you survive can eventually become the wall preventing you from living.

That is one of trauma’s cruel contradictions.

The Survivor Frame of Mind

The survivor does not pretend the wound never happened.

The survivor learns to carry the scar without allowing the scar to become an identity.

The survivor can say:

Yes, that happened.

Yes, it hurt me.

Yes, I have wounds from it.

No, it was not fair.

No, I did not deserve it.

And yes, I still have a life to live.

Research on resilience after trauma examines precisely this question: how people adapt following profoundly difficult experiences and how resilience can be fostered after trauma. Survival is therefore not denial.

It is not saying:

“It didn’t hurt.”

It is saying:

“It hurt, and I am still here.”

Victim Thinking Says, “They Have the Power.”

Survivor thinking says:

“I have choices.”

Perhaps you could not choose what happened.

You can choose what you do today.

You can choose whether to ask for help.

You can choose your boundaries.

You can choose whom you allow close to you.

You can choose whether to continue treatment.

You can choose whether the people who wounded your past are permitted to control your future.

Trauma-informed care itself recognizes the importance of safety, trust, collaboration, empowerment, voice, and choice in recovery. SAMHSA identifies these ideas among the central principles of trauma-informed approaches. That word matters:

Choice.

Trauma frequently involves losing control.

Recovery often involves discovering where control still exists.

“Why Did This Happen to Me?”

Nearly everyone who has suffered deeply has asked some version of this question.

Why me?

Why did they do it?

Why didn’t someone protect me?

Why didn’t I see it?

Why didn’t I leave sooner?

Why didn’t anyone believe me?

Those questions deserve compassion.

But there is another question that can eventually become more useful:

“Given that this happened, who do I want to become now?”

That question cannot rewrite yesterday.

It can begin changing tomorrow.

Survivors Learn the Difference Between Responsibility and Blame

This may be the hardest concept in the entire journey.

You are not necessarily responsible for what happened to you.

But you eventually become responsible for what you do with what happened to you.

Those are completely different statements.

If someone injured you, responsibility for that action belongs to that person.

Healing belongs to you.

That may feel terribly unfair.

It often is.

Sometimes another person creates the wound while you are left doing the work of repairing it.

But refusing to heal until the person who hurt you makes everything right can leave your future tied to the very person who harmed your past.

Your healing does not need their permission.

Your recovery does not require their understanding.

Your future does not require their apology.

Accountability matters. Justice matters. Acknowledgment matters. In fact, the American Psychological Association recognizes the potential importance of acknowledgment, apology, redress, and restitution in trauma recovery. But your life cannot always remain suspended while waiting for those things.

How Do You Become the Survivor?

There is no switch that suddenly changes someone from victim to survivor.

Healing tends to be a process.

Some days you may feel strong.

The next day, something may trigger an old wound and make you feel as though you have gone backward.

You haven’t necessarily failed.

Here are several places to begin.

1. Tell the Truth About What Happened

Survivorship doesn’t begin by minimizing the past.

It begins with truth.

It happened.

It hurt.

It affected me.

You do not have to defend the person who hurt you.

You do not have to rewrite history to make other people comfortable.

Healing requires honesty.

And sometimes that honesty needs to happen with a qualified mental health professional rather than alone.

2. Stop Making the Wound Your Identity

Notice the enormous difference between these statements:

“I experienced abuse.”

and

“I am damaged.”

Or:

“Someone betrayed me.”

and

“I am unlovable.”

An event is not an identity.

Trauma can influence identity development, and researchers continue to study the relationship between trauma exposure and identity. What happened may always be part of your story.

It does not have to become your entire definition.

You are more than the worst thing someone ever did to you.

3. Identify What You Still Control

Take a sheet of paper and make two columns.

I Cannot Control

  • What happened yesterday
  • What another person thinks
  • Whether someone admits wrongdoing
  • Whether someone apologizes
  • Whether everyone understands my story
  • Another person’s choices

I Can Influence or Control

  • What I do today
  • Whether I ask for help
  • My boundaries
  • Many of my daily choices
  • Whose advice I seek
  • Whether I participate in treatment
  • How I respond when old patterns appear
  • What kind of person I am trying to become

Spend less energy fighting the first list.

Invest more energy in the second.

That is where your power lives.

4. Recognize Avoidance

Avoidance can feel like safety.

Sometimes it is appropriate to avoid genuine danger. But avoiding every thought, emotion, place, relationship, or reminder associated with what happened is different.

The VA National Center for PTSD notes that emotional and behavioral avoidance can interfere with recovery and that effective PTSD treatments can help people learn to cope with trauma-related thoughts and feelings. The U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs has similarly developed recovery materials specifically focused on identifying problematic avoidance behaviors and gradually changing behaviors that keep people stuck in trauma recovery. Courage does not mean never being afraid.

Sometimes courage is simply deciding:

“Fear is present, but fear is no longer making every decision.”

5. Build Boundaries Instead of Walls

Trauma may teach:

Never trust anybody again.

Healing teaches something more sophisticated:

Learn who has earned your trust.

A wall keeps everyone outside.

A boundary has a gate.

A survivor learns when to open it, when to close it, and who receives a key.

6. Allow Yourself to Receive Help

Being a survivor does not mean doing everything alone.

Actually, refusing every form of help can sometimes keep people isolated.

SAMHSA emphasizes safety, peer support, trust, collaboration, and empowerment as important elements within trauma-informed approaches. Help may include professional counseling, trusted friends and family, support groups, medical care, community resources, or spiritual support according to your beliefs and circumstances.

Strength isn’t proving that you need nobody.

Sometimes strength is finally admitting:

“I don’t have to carry all of this by myself.”

7. Give Yourself Permission to Have a Future

Trauma keeps pulling the mind backward.

Healing gradually teaches it to look forward again.

Make plans.

Set a goal.

Learn something.

Build something.

Reconnect carefully.

Create new routines.

Find something meaningful enough that tomorrow becomes more than another day spent thinking about yesterday.

This does not dishonor what happened.

It demonstrates that what happened did not win.

Forgiveness Is Not the Price of Admission

People are sometimes told that they cannot heal unless they forgive the person who hurt them.

I would be careful with that message.

Forgiveness may be deeply meaningful for some people, especially within their spiritual beliefs. But forgiveness should not be confused with denying harm, restoring an unsafe relationship, abandoning boundaries, or removing accountability.

You can heal while still saying:

“What you did was wrong.”

You can move forward without pretending it never happened.

You can have compassion and boundaries at the same time.

Survival Is Not Becoming Who You Were Before

Perhaps this is where we sometimes misunderstand recovery.

After something profound happens, you may never become exactly the person you were before.

That doesn’t automatically mean something has been lost forever.

Perhaps the goal isn’t to go backward.

Perhaps it is to move forward.

Wiser.

More discerning.

More compassionate.

Better acquainted with your boundaries.

More aware of your strength.

More intentional about the life you build.

Resilience research has increasingly examined not merely whether people endure trauma, but how resilience may be fostered following it. The goal isn’t to become untouched.

It is to become unowned by what touched you.

The Day You Become a Survivor

There may never be a ceremony.

Nobody hands you a certificate.

You probably won’t wake up one morning completely free from every painful memory.

Instead, the transformation may happen quietly.

One day you realize you haven’t thought about it for several hours.

Then perhaps an entire day.

You recognize a trigger and choose a different response.

You establish a boundary you once believed you couldn’t establish.

You stop explaining yourself to somebody committed to misunderstanding you.

You ask for help.

You laugh again without feeling guilty.

You make plans.

You love again.

You hope again.

And somewhere along the way, your vocabulary changes.

You stop saying:

“This is who I am because of what they did.”

And begin saying:

“This is who I am becoming despite what happened.”

That is the difference.

The victim’s story is centered around what was done.

The survivor’s story acknowledges what was done but slowly turns toward what comes next.

Conclusion: Take Back the Pen

You cannot erase pages that have already been written.

Some pages may contain things you wish had never happened.

Some contain loss.

Others contain betrayal, fear, grief, humiliation, abandonment, or pain.

There is no wisdom in pretending those pages aren’t there.

Read them when you need to.

Grieve them.

Talk about them.

Learn from them.

Get professional help working through them when necessary.

But eventually, remember something extraordinarily important:

There are blank pages after them.

And those pages still belong to you.

Being a survivor does not mean saying, “It didn’t hurt me.”

It means being able to say:

“It hurt me. It changed me. There were days when I didn’t know whether I could carry it anymore. But I am still here, and what happened to me will not be given the authority to decide everything that happens next.”

You didn’t choose every chapter.

But you can still take back the pen.

About the Author

John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW-S

John S. Collier is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker Supervisor and the Executive Director of Southeast Kentucky Behavioral Health, LLC. His career in social work and behavioral health has included years of work with individuals and families experiencing mental health concerns, trauma, behavioral challenges, relationship difficulties, developmental disabilities, and complicated life transitions.

He earned his bachelor’s degree and became a Certified Social Worker in 2004 before continuing his education and professional development in clinical social work. He became a Licensed Clinical Social Worker in 2010 and later earned the credential of Licensed Clinical Social Worker Supervisor.

As Executive Director of Southeast Kentucky Behavioral Health, Collier works in behavioral health leadership, clinical services, organizational development, community-based behavioral supports, and advocacy for individuals and families throughout southeastern Kentucky.

He is also the author of The Mind’s Trestle Board, where he writes about mental health, relationships, masculinity, family, morality, personal responsibility, faith, emotional growth, and the difficult process of becoming a better version of ourselves. His writing often draws from the intersection of clinical experience, human behavior, personal reflection, and the belief that people should never be reduced to the worst moment of their lives.

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September 11: A Day of Remembrance, Gratitude, and Reflection

By John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW-S

Every generation has moments that become permanently etched into memory. For many Americans, September 11, 2001, is one of those moments. It is a day marked by sorrow, sacrifice, courage, and unity. Twenty-five years later, we still remember where we were, how we felt, and the profound impact that day had on our nation and the world.

On the morning of September 11, 2001, nineteen terrorists hijacked four commercial aircraft. Two planes were flown into the Twin Towers of the World Trade Center in New York City, one struck the Pentagon, and a fourth crashed in Pennsylvania after passengers courageously fought back against the hijackers. Nearly 3,000 people lost their lives in what remains the deadliest foreign attack on American soil. Yet while the events of that day revealed unimaginable evil, they also revealed something else: the remarkable strength of the human spirit.

We remember the firefighters who climbed stairwells while others were descending to safety. We remember the police officers who rushed toward danger. We remember emergency medical personnel, military members, volunteers, and ordinary citizens who placed the lives of strangers above their own. More than 2,000 police officers and nearly 1,000 firefighters responded to the World Trade Center attacks, joining countless others in rescue and recovery efforts. Their actions remind us that heroism is not always found in grand speeches or celebrated victories. Often, it is found in quiet acts of service, in selfless sacrifice, and in the willingness to help another human being despite personal risk.

For me, September 11 carries an additional significance. It is the day my son was born.

Over the years, people have often asked what it was like to welcome a child into the world on a day overshadowed by national tragedy. The answer is difficult to put into words. While television screens showed devastation, uncertainty, and heartbreak, I was also witnessing one of the most meaningful moments of my life. The contrast was profound. A day of collective grief became, for me, a day forever intertwined with the gift of new life.

As my son grew older, each birthday became more than a celebration. It became an opportunity to pause and remember. Before the cake is cut, before gifts are opened, before the laughter begins, there is reflection. Reflection on those who never came home. Reflection on the families whose lives changed forever. Reflection on the heroes whose bravery continues to inspire generations.

The passage of time does not diminish the significance of September 11. If anything, it increases our responsibility to remember. A growing number of Americans were born after the attacks and have no personal memory of the events. The National September 11 Memorial & Museum has emphasized the importance of preserving the stories of loss, courage, compassion, and service for future generations so that the promise to “never forget” remains meaningful. Remembering is not about reliving tragedy. It is about honoring the humanity that emerged in its wake.

It is about remembering the office worker who helped a colleague down dozens of flights of stairs. It is about the passenger who made one final phone call to loved ones before confronting unimaginable danger. It is about the first responder who continued searching for survivors long after hope had faded. It is about the families who found the strength to carry on despite overwhelming loss.

Their stories teach us that courage is contagious. Compassion matters. Service matters. Community matters.

In a world that often feels divided, September 11 reminds us of a time when Americans stood together. Differences that normally separated people seemed insignificant in the face of shared grief and shared purpose. Neighbors helped neighbors. Communities rallied together. Strangers became family.

Those lessons remain relevant today.

As we observe another anniversary of September 11, may we remember the victims with dignity. May we honor the survivors with respect. May we thank the first responders, military personnel, medical professionals, volunteers, and countless others whose sacrifices demonstrated the very best of humanity.

And may we never lose sight of what they showed us: that even in our darkest hours, courage endures, compassion survives, and the human spirit remains stronger than fear.

Today, I remember those who were lost.

Today, I thank those who served.

And today, as I celebrate another year of my son’s life, I am reminded that remembrance and gratitude can exist side by side, honoring the past while appreciating the precious gift of the present.

About the Author

John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW-S is the Executive Director of Southeast Kentucky Behavioral Health (SEKYBH) and a Licensed Clinical Social Worker Supervisor with extensive experience in behavioral health, community services, clinical leadership, and organizational development. Throughout his career, he has been dedicated to strengthening individuals, families, and communities through compassionate care, advocacy, and service.

As a behavioral health professional, John believes that some of life’s most difficult moments often reveal the resilience, courage, and humanity that connect us all. His writing frequently explores themes of hope, remembrance, personal reflection, and the enduring strength of the human spirit.

In this article, John’s reflections on September 11 are both historical and deeply personal. September 11, 2001, is not only a day of national remembrance, but also the day his son was born. This unique intersection of public tragedy and personal joy has shaped his perspective on gratitude, service, sacrifice, and the importance of honoring those whose lives and actions continue to inspire future generations.

When not leading organizational initiatives or advocating for improved behavioral health services across Kentucky, John enjoys writing articles, poetry, and community-focused content that encourages reflection, understanding, and meaningful human connection.

Author Contact

John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW-S
Executive Director
Southeast Kentucky Behavioral Health (SEKYBH)
London, Kentucky

“We honor the past not by dwelling in tragedy, but by remembering the lives, sacrifices, and lessons that continue to guide us forward.” – John S. Collier

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Are There Different Kinds of Trauma?

Trauma is often spoken about as a single experience, yet psychological research and clinical practice show that trauma is not one-size-fits-all. Individuals may experience different types of trauma, each with distinct causes, symptom patterns, and treatment considerations. Understanding these differences is essential for accurate assessment, compassionate care, and effective intervention.

What Is Trauma?

Trauma refers to an emotional, psychological, or physiological response to an event (or series of events) that is perceived as deeply distressing or threatening. According to the DSM-5-TR, trauma typically involves exposure to actual or threatened death, serious injury, or sexual violence, either directly, indirectly, or through repeated exposure (APA, 2022). However, clinicians also recognize that trauma can arise from experiences that overwhelm an individual’s capacity to cope, even if they fall outside strict diagnostic definitions.

Major Categories of Trauma

1. Acute Trauma

Acute trauma results from a single, time-limited event such as:

Car accidents Natural disasters Assault Sudden medical emergencies

Common reactions may include shock, anxiety, intrusive memories, sleep disturbance, and hypervigilance (Bryant, 2019).

2. Chronic Trauma

Chronic trauma involves repeated and prolonged exposure to distressing events, including:

Ongoing domestic violence Long-term child abuse Persistent bullying Living in unsafe environments

Chronic trauma often leads to more complex emotional and relational difficulties due to sustained stress activation (Courtois & Ford, 2013).

3. Complex Trauma

Complex trauma typically arises from multiple, interpersonal, and invasive traumatic experiences, often during childhood. Examples include:

Emotional, physical, or sexual abuse Severe neglect Attachment disruptions

Complex trauma is associated with difficulties in emotional regulation, self-identity, trust, and interpersonal functioning (van der Kolk, 2005).

4. Developmental Trauma

Developmental trauma refers to trauma that occurs during critical developmental stages, affecting brain development, attachment, and emotional regulation. Early adversity can alter stress-response systems and cognitive functioning (Teicher & Samson, 2016).

5. Secondary (Vicarious) Trauma

Secondary trauma affects individuals who are indirectly exposed to traumatic material, such as:

Therapists First responders Healthcare professionals Caregivers

Repeated exposure to others’ trauma can produce symptoms similar to PTSD (Figley, 1995).

6. Historical / Intergenerational Trauma

Historical trauma describes the cumulative emotional harm across generations, often linked to systemic oppression, colonization, war, or cultural displacement (Brave Heart, 2003).

7. Collective Trauma

Collective trauma impacts entire communities or societies, such as during:

Pandemics Terrorist attacks Wars Large-scale disasters

These events disrupt social stability and shared sense of safety (Erikson, 1976).

Trauma Can Also Differ by Source

Trauma may vary depending on the nature of the event:

Interpersonal trauma (abuse, assault, betrayal) Medical trauma (invasive procedures, life-threatening diagnoses) Combat trauma Sexual trauma Grief-related trauma

Each source may shape how symptoms emerge and how treatment is approached.

Why Distinguishing Trauma Types Matters

Different trauma experiences may produce overlapping yet distinct effects:

Domain Affected

Possible Impact

Emotional

Anxiety, depression, mood swings

Cognitive

Intrusive thoughts, memory problems

Physiological

Sleep disruption, hyperarousal

Relational

Trust issues, attachment difficulties

Behavioral

Avoidance, substance use

For example, acute trauma may produce short-term stress reactions, while complex trauma may contribute to long-standing difficulties with identity, boundaries, and emotional regulation (Cloitre et al., 2019).

Healing and Treatment Implications

Effective trauma treatment often includes:

Trauma-focused CBT EMDR Somatic therapies Attachment-based approaches Psychoeducation Nervous system regulation

Treatment planning should consider type, duration, developmental timing, and individual resilience factors (SAMHSA, 2014).

Conclusion

Yes — there are different kinds of trauma, and recognizing these distinctions helps clinicians, caregivers, and individuals better understand the wide range of trauma responses. Trauma is defined not only by the event itself but by how it affects the mind, body, and sense of safety. With appropriate support and evidence-based care, recovery is possible.

About the Author

John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW, is a behavioral health therapist and clinical professional dedicated to helping individuals understand emotional distress, trauma, and pathways to healing. His work focuses on translating psychological concepts into practical, compassionate guidance for everyday life.

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Courtois, C. A., & Ford, J. D. (2013). Treatment of Complex Trauma. Guilford Press.

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When the Mind Keeps Returning to the Betrayal

Why the Betrayed Partner Dwells — and Why It’s Grief, Not Obsession

After infidelity is discovered, many betrayed partners find themselves repeatedly replaying the cheater’s choices: When did it start? Why that person? How could they do this? To outsiders—and sometimes even to the betrayed person themselves—this dwelling can look like fixation or an inability to “move on.” In reality, this mental looping is rarely about the affair alone. It is a natural expression of grief.

Dwelling Is the Mind Searching for Meaning

Betrayal shatters the assumed safety of a marriage. The betrayed partner is not simply reacting to an event; they are trying to make sense of a reality that no longer aligns with what they believed to be true. Psychological research shows that humans instinctively review traumatic events in an attempt to restore coherence and regain a sense of control (Janoff-Bulman, 1992). Repeatedly thinking about the cheater’s decisions is the mind’s effort to answer an impossible question: How did the life I trusted disappear without my consent?

Grieving More Than the Affair

What is often misunderstood is that the betrayed partner is not “dwelling in the infidelity” because they want to suffer. They are grieving multiple losses at once. These losses include the marriage they thought they had, the trust that anchored their emotional safety, and the future they envisioned growing old into together. Pauline Boss (2006) describes this as ambiguous loss—a grief that lacks closure because the relationship may still exist, but the emotional foundation has been irreversibly altered.

The Loss of Identity and Shared Meaning

Infidelity does not only harm the relationship; it disrupts personal identity. Many betrayed partners ask, Who am I now if the story of us was false? Attachment theory explains that romantic partners become part of how we regulate emotions and understand ourselves (Bowlby, 1988). When betrayal occurs, the nervous system remains on high alert, scanning for danger. This heightened state makes intrusive thoughts more frequent, not because the person wants to revisit pain, but because the brain is trying to prevent it from happening again.

Why “Letting It Go” Feels Impossible

Grief does not move in a straight line. Kübler-Ross and Kessler (2005) emphasized that mourning involves waves of disbelief, anger, sadness, and searching. The betrayed partner often returns to the cheater’s choices because those choices symbolize the moment everything changed. Asking someone to “stop dwelling” is similar to telling someone to stop mourning a death—it misunderstands the function of grief.

Healing Requires Acknowledgment, Not Suppression

True healing begins when the betrayed partner’s grief is named and validated. Processing betrayal involves mourning what was lost, not rushing toward forgiveness or resolution. Research on post-traumatic growth suggests that individuals heal more effectively when they are allowed to openly process meaning, loss, and emotional pain rather than minimizing it (Tedeschi & Calhoun, 2004). Over time, as grief is honored rather than resisted, the intrusive dwelling softens into understanding and integration.

The betrayed partner does not dwell on the cheater’s choices because they are stuck; they dwell because they are grieving. They are mourning a marriage that no longer exists in the form they trusted, a future that vanished without warning, and a sense of emotional safety that was deeply violated. Recognizing this process as grief—not weakness or obsession—creates space for compassion, healing, and eventual restoration of self.

John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW, is a licensed clinical social worker with extensive experience in trauma, grief, relationship repair, and divorce recovery. As a behavioral health professional, he works with individuals and couples navigating betrayal, loss, and major life transitions. His writing integrates clinical insight with real-world understanding, helping readers make sense of complex emotional experiences and move toward healing with clarity and dignity.

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