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When Your Heart Wants Them Back but Your Mind Knows Better:

Understanding the Battle Between Emotion and Logic After Heartbreak

Article Three: Part of the Healing After Heartbreak Series

Your Phone Lights Up

Your phone vibrates. For just a second, your heart races.

“Maybe it’s them.”

You reach for your phone almost before your mind has time to think. But it isn’t. It’s a weather alert. Or a friend. Or an advertisement. Your heart sinks just as quickly as it leaped. Then, almost immediately, another thought appears.

  • “Maybe I should text them.”
  • “Maybe enough time has passed.”
  • “Maybe they’ve changed.”

Your mind quietly reminds you why the relationship ended. Your heart answers, “Yes…but I still miss them.” If you’ve ever felt like your heart and your mind were arguing with each other, you’re not alone. This internal battle is one of the most common experiences after the end of a meaningful relationship.

Why Do I Feel This Way?

Many people believe that if they know a relationship was unhealthy, they shouldn’t miss the other person. Unfortunately, emotions don’t work that way. Love is more than a decision. It is also a collection of memories, routines, hopes, dreams, habits, and emotional bonds that were built over time.

When a relationship ends, those bonds do not disappear overnight. Your logical mind may understand that the relationship needed to end. Your emotional brain is still adjusting to the loss. That isn’t weakness. It’s part of being human.

Research has shown that romantic attachment shares many characteristics with other forms of attachment. When those attachments are broken, the brain often continues seeking closeness even after the relationship has ended (Fisher, Brown, Aron, Strong, & Mashek, 2010).

Your Brain Loves Familiar

Imagine you’ve driven the same road to work every morning for five years. One day, the road closes. Even though you know it is closed, you may still find yourself turning toward it out of habit. Relationships create similar emotional pathways. You became used to hearing their voice. Sharing good news. Sending funny memes. Talking before bed. Planning weekends. Your brain became familiar with that routine.

Now the routine is gone. The longing you feel is not always a sign that the relationship was right. Sometimes it is simply a sign that the relationship was familiar.

Missing Someone Doesn’t Always Mean You Should Go Back

This is one of the hardest truths to accept. You can deeply miss someone……and still know they were not good for you. Both things can be true. Consider these examples:

  • A person may miss someone who constantly criticized them.
  • Someone may long for an ex who repeatedly broke their trust.
  • A person may miss the companionship of a relationship even though they were unhappy most of the time.

Missing someone is evidence that you loved. It is not evidence that returning is the healthiest choice.

A Real-Life Example

Imagine a woman named Sarah who spent eight years with someone she loved deeply. Over time, the relationship became filled with broken promises, constant arguments, and emotional distance. When they finally separated, Sarah knew it was the right decision.

Yet every evening around six o’clock she reached for her phone. Not because anything had changed. Because for eight years, six o’clock was when they talked about their day. Her heart missed the routine. Her mind remembered the reality.

Healing required learning to create a new evening routine rather than returning to an unhealthy relationship simply because the old one felt familiar.

Love Can Leave an Echo

Think about walking through a canyon. You shout once. The sound continues long after you’ve stopped speaking. Relationships can leave emotional echoes. You may hear a song. Drive past a favorite restaurant. See someone wearing their favorite color. Smell a familiar perfume or cologne. Suddenly, your heart feels as if the breakup happened yesterday. That doesn’t mean you’ve failed. It means memories are connected to your senses. Over time, those echoes become quieter.

Signs Your Heart and Mind Are Disagreeing

You might notice thoughts like these:

Your Heart Says:

  • “I miss them.”
  • “I just want one more conversation.”
  • “Maybe this time will be different.”
  • “I still love them.”

Your Mind Says:

  • “Remember why it ended.”
  • “You deserve consistency.”
  • “Love should not require constant suffering.”
  • “Missing someone isn’t the same as needing them.”

Learning to listen to both—and letting wisdom guide your decisions—is part of emotional maturity.

Therapist’s Note

One of the greatest acts of self-respect is refusing to confuse loneliness with compatibility. There are moments when your heart will ask you to go back simply because moving forward feels unfamiliar. Give your heart compassion. But let your values steer your life.

What You Can Do

The next time you feel the urge to reach out to someone you know is unhealthy for you, pause before acting. Ask yourself these questions:

  • Do I miss this person, or do I miss having someone?
  • Am I remembering the whole relationship or only the good moments?
  • If nothing about this person changed, would I still choose this relationship?
  • Am I looking for healing or temporary relief?

Then write your answers down. Sometimes seeing your thoughts on paper helps your emotions catch up with what your mind already knows.

Build a New Routine

One of the healthiest ways to quiet emotional longing is to replace old routines with new ones. Instead of checking your phone every evening:

  • Go for a walk.
  • Read for twenty minutes.
  • Call a friend.
  • Learn a new hobby.
  • Spend time in prayer or meditation.
  • Exercise.
  • Journal about your progress.

You are not simply filling time. You are teaching your brain that life continues.

Final Thoughts

There may come a day when you think about them and smile instead of cry. Not because they came back. But because you finally came back to yourself. Healing is not forgetting someone who mattered. Healing is remembering yourself enough to stop chasing what continues to hurt you. Your heart may take longer than your mind. That’s okay. Walk at the pace of healing, not the pace of loneliness.

About the Author

John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW-S is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker and Executive Director of Southeast Kentucky Behavioral Health, LLC. With more than 25 years of experience in behavioral health, trauma, grief, and relationship counseling, he has helped individuals understand the connection between emotions, thoughts, and healthy decision-making. His goal is to make psychological concepts practical, hopeful, and accessible for people navigating life’s most difficult seasons.

References

Fisher, H. E., Brown, L. L., Aron, A., Strong, G., & Mashek, D. (2010). Reward, addiction, and emotion regulation systems associated with rejection in love. Journal of Neurophysiology, 104(1), 51–60.

Mikulincer, M., & Shaver, P. R. (2016). Attachment in Adulthood: Structure, Dynamics, and Change (2nd ed.). Guilford Press.

Sbarra, D. A. (2015). Love, Loss, and the Space Between: Stop Avoiding Pain and Start Living Your Life. Hay House.

Series Reminder

Healing doesn’t mean forgetting. It means carrying yesterday without letting it steal tomorrow.

Grieving the Future You Thought You Would Have

Why Losing a Dream Can Hurt as Much as Losing a Person

Imagine This…

Imagine walking into an empty house.

The walls are bare. The rooms are quiet. There are no family pictures. No laughter. No smell of dinner cooking.

But in your mind, the house is full.

You see birthday parties in the living room. Christmas mornings around the tree. Quiet evenings sitting together on the porch. You picture growing old with the person you love.

Then one conversation changes everything.

The future you imagined is suddenly gone.

Now you are not only grieving the person you loved.

You are grieving the life you thought you were going to have.

That kind of pain is real.

Why Does This Hurt So Much?

When we fall in love, our minds naturally begin thinking about tomorrow.

We imagine holidays together. We talk about places we want to visit. We dream about growing old side by side. We picture birthdays, anniversaries, and family traditions.

Our brain starts treating those dreams like they are already part of our life.

When the relationship ends, we lose more than the person.

We also lose the future we believed was coming.

That is why heartbreak often feels much bigger than people expect.

Your Brain Is Trying to Make Sense of It

Our brains like certainty.

They want to know what tomorrow will look like. When we feel safe with someone, our brain begins filling in the blanks.

It says things like:

“We’ll always be together.”

“We’ll get married someday.”

“We’ll grow old together.”

Those thoughts feel real because we repeat them over and over.

When the relationship ends, our brain suddenly has to erase a future it had already accepted.

That takes time.

The Difference Between Reality and the Story We Tell Ourselves

There is an important difference between facts and assumptions.

A fact is something that really happened.

An assumption is something we believed would happen.

For example:

Fact: You loved someone.

Fact: You spent time planning a future together.

Assumption: Everything would work out exactly as you imagined.

Many people spend months grieving the assumptions more than the facts.

That does not make them weak.

It makes them human.

We Sometimes Fall in Love with Tomorrow

Most people do not realize they are doing it.

We begin to love birthdays that have never happened.

We miss vacations we never took.

We grieve children that were never born.

We cry over conversations that never happened.

We mourn a retirement beside someone who may never have been there.

Those dreams mattered because they gave us hope.

Hope is powerful.

When hope is broken, our hearts feel broken too.

Be Careful Not to Rewrite the Past

When we are hurting, we often remember only the good moments.

We forget the disagreements.

We forget the red flags.

We forget the hard conversations.

Our mind tries to protect us by showing us only the happiest memories.

That is normal.

But healing requires us to remember the whole story—not just the parts we wish had lasted forever.

A Simple Exercise

Take out a piece of paper.

Draw a line down the middle.

On one side write Facts.

On the other side write Assumptions.

For example:

Facts

Assumptions

We loved each other.

We would grow old together.

We talked about marriage.

We were guaranteed to marry.

We planned a future.

That future was certain.

The relationship ended.

I will never be happy again.

When you finish, read only the facts.

You may notice that many of the thoughts causing the deepest pain are assumptions, not reality.

That does not make your pain less real.

It simply helps your mind separate what happened from what you feared losing.

Healing Takes Time

You cannot force your heart to stop hurting.

You cannot flip a switch and move on.

Healing happens one day at a time.

Some mornings you will feel strong.

Other mornings you may feel like you are starting over.

That is okay.

Healing is not a straight line.

It is a journey.

Keep taking the next step.

Eventually, the future you thought you lost will slowly make room for a new future you never expected.

Final Thoughts

One of the hardest parts of heartbreak is realizing that you are not only grieving a person.

You are grieving birthdays that never happened.

Anniversaries that were never celebrated.

Dreams that never became memories.

But remember this.

Just because one future ended does not mean your story is over.

God is still writing the chapters you have not read yet.

And sometimes the pages you never expected become the most beautiful part of the story.

About the Author

John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW-S, is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker Supervisor and Executive Director of Southeast Kentucky Behavioral Health, LLC. With more than 25 years of experience in behavioral health, he has worked with individuals and families facing grief, trauma, anxiety, depression, relationship struggles, and life transitions. His writing combines clinical research with everyday language to help people better understand their emotions, develop healthy coping skills, and find hope during life’s most difficult seasons.

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American Psychiatric Association. (2022). Diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders (5th ed., text rev.; DSM-5-TR). American Psychiatric Association Publishing.

Beck, J. S. (2021). Cognitive behavior therapy: Basics and beyond (3rd ed.). Guilford Press.

Bowlby, J. (1980). Attachment and loss: Vol. 3. Loss: Sadness and depression. Basic Books.

Neimeyer, R. A. (2016). Techniques of grief therapy: Assessment and intervention. Routledge.

Stroebe, M., Schut, H., & Boerner, K. (2017). Cautioning health-care professionals: Bereaved persons are misguided through the stages of grief. Omega: Journal of Death and Dying, 74(4), 455–473.

How Trauma Changes the Brain: What You Need to Know

Trauma, whether it’s from a physical injury or an emotional experience, can have a lasting impact on the brain. Thanks to research in neuroscience, we now know that trauma doesn’t just affect how we feel—it actually changes how the brain works. Understanding these changes can help us see why trauma has such powerful effects and how recovery is possible.

What Happens to the Brain During Trauma?

When you go through a traumatic event, your brain switches into “survival mode.” This is controlled by something called the stress response system, which prepares your body to deal with danger. You may have heard of the “fight, flight, or freeze” response. This is when stress hormones like cortisol and adrenaline flood your body, helping you react quickly to protect yourself.

This response is helpful in the short term, like when you need to escape danger. But if trauma is ongoing, or if your brain keeps thinking you’re in danger even after the threat is gone, this stress response can do more harm than good.

How Trauma Changes the Brain

Trauma can change how different parts of the brain work and even how they look. Here are the three key areas affected:

1. The Amygdala: The Alarm System

The amygdala is the part of your brain that helps detect threats and process emotions like fear. After trauma, the amygdala can become overactive, making you feel on edge or jumpy even when you’re safe. This is why people who’ve experienced trauma often feel anxious or have trouble calming down.

2. The Prefrontal Cortex: The Decision Maker

The prefrontal cortex is like the brain’s “control center.” It helps you think logically, make decisions, and calm down after a stressful event. Trauma can make this part of the brain less active, which means it’s harder to think clearly, control your emotions, or feel in control of your reactions.

3. The Hippocampus: The Memory Keeper

The hippocampus is responsible for organizing memories and distinguishing between the past and the present. Trauma can make the hippocampus shrink, which is why some people have trouble remembering details of the trauma or feel like they’re reliving it (flashbacks), even when it’s over.

Why Do These Changes Matter?

The changes in the brain after trauma explain many of the symptoms people experience, such as:

• Flashbacks or nightmares: The brain struggles to tell the difference between past and present, so it feels like the trauma is happening again.

• Anxiety or hypervigilance: The overactive amygdala keeps you constantly on the lookout for danger.

• Difficulty focusing or making decisions: A less active prefrontal cortex makes it harder to think clearly.

These changes also show why trauma doesn’t just “go away” on its own—your brain needs time and support to heal.

Can the Brain Heal After Trauma?

The good news is that the brain is adaptable. This ability to change and heal is called neuroplasticity. With the right support, the brain can recover from the effects of trauma. Here’s how:

1. Therapy: Treatments like trauma-focused cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and eye movement desensitization and reprocessing (EMDR) can help “rewire” the brain and reduce symptoms.

2. Mindfulness and relaxation techniques: Practices like meditation can help calm the amygdala and strengthen the prefrontal cortex.

3. Exercise: Physical activity can increase the size of the hippocampus and improve mood by releasing feel-good chemicals like endorphins.

Trauma changes the brain, but these changes don’t have to be permanent. Understanding how trauma affects the brain can help us be more compassionate toward ourselves and others who are struggling. With the right tools and support, healing is not only possible—it’s likely.

This article has been written by John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW. Mr. Collier has over 25 years experience in the social work field. He currently serves as the executive director in outpatient behavioral health therapist at Southeast Kentucky Behavioral health based out of London Kentucky. He may be reached by phone at 606-657-0532 extension 101 or by email at john@sckybh.com

References

• Shin, L. M., Rauch, S. L., & Pitman, R. K. (2006). Amygdala, medial prefrontal cortex, and hippocampal function in PTSD. Annals of the New York Academy of Sciences, 1071(1), 67-79.

• Bremner, J. D. (2006). Traumatic stress: Effects on the brain. Dialogues in Clinical Neuroscience, 8(4), 445-461.

• van der Kolk, B. A. (2014). The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma.