The phrase“I got triggered” has become increasingly common in modern conversations. People use it to describe intense emotional reactions to something another person said, did, or failed to do. While emotional triggers are real and deserve attention, there is an important truth that is often overlooked: your emotional trigger is your responsibility, not someone else’s.
This does not mean other people are always right, kind, or considerate. It does not mean hurtful behavior should be excused. Rather, it means that while external events may activate an emotional response, you remain responsible for how you interpret, manage, and respond to that reaction.
Emotional triggers are often connected to unresolved experiences, personal beliefs, fears, insecurities, past trauma, or deeply held expectations. According to the Cleveland Clinic, emotional triggers are situations, events, thoughts, or interactions that provoke intense emotional reactions that may be disproportionate to the present event because they are connected to past experiences. [health.cle…clinic.org]
A trigger is not proof that someone else caused your emotions. Instead, it is often evidence that something within you requires examination, healing, or growth.
Understanding the Difference Between Cause and Responsibility
A useful distinction exists between cause and responsibility.
Someone may say something rude. That statement may act as a catalyst for anger. However, the emotional reaction that follows belongs to the individual experiencing it.
Many people spend years blaming family members, coworkers, former partners, friends, or society for their emotional pain. While others may influence our experiences, remaining trapped in blame often prevents healing.
When responsibility is surrendered, personal power is surrendered as well.
Consider these examples:
Someone criticizes your work, and you become enraged.
A friend does not text back quickly, and you become anxious.
A spouse disagrees with you, and you immediately become defensive.
A coworker receives recognition, and you become resentful.
The external event occurred. However, the intensity of the emotional response often reflects an internal issue that deserves attention.
As psychologist Susan Albers notes, emotional triggers often function as “knee-jerk reactions” connected to prior emotional wounds, pain, or stressful experiences rather than the present situation alone. [health.cle…clinic.org]
Why Blaming Others Keeps You Stuck
Blame can feel empowering in the moment because it removes responsibility from ourselves. Unfortunately, it also removes our ability to create lasting change.
When your happiness depends on other people changing, you remain powerless. When your peace depends on others behaving perfectly, you remain trapped. When your emotional well-being depends upon controlling the behavior of everyone around you, you are fighting a battle you cannot win. Personal accountability allows you to move from:
Victimhood to ownership
Reactivity to intentionality
Resentment to growth
Helplessness to empowerment
Self-awareness is a foundational component of emotional intelligence. Research and psychological theory indicate that self-awareness helps individuals recognize emotions, understand behavioral patterns, and make more intentional choices. [positiveps…hology.com], [dictionary.apa.org]
Signs That You May Be Operating From a Trigger
You may be reacting from a trigger when:
Your emotional response feels much larger than the event itself.
You repeatedly experience the same conflicts.
You immediately become defensive.
You struggle to calm yourself after an interaction.
You replay conversations repeatedly in your mind.
You frequently blame others for how you feel.
You find yourself saying things you later regret.
Recognizing these signs is not a reason for shame. It is an opportunity for growth.
Eight Steps to Take Ownership of Your Triggers
1. Pause Before Reacting
Strong emotions create urgency. Triggers often convince us that immediate action is necessary.
Instead:
Stop.
Take several deep breaths.
Create distance between feeling and action.
Even a brief pause allows the thinking parts of the brain to engage before impulsive behavior occurs. Naming and observing emotions can strengthen emotional regulation and reduce reactivity. [apa.org], [scienceinsights.org]
2. Identify What You Are Feeling
Many people only recognize anger.
However, underneath anger may be:
Fear
Shame
Rejection
Insecurity
Embarrassment
Loneliness
Disappointment
Ask yourself:
“What am I actually feeling right now?”
Awareness creates choice.
3. Ask, “Why Does This Affect Me So Strongly?”
Instead of focusing on the other person’s behavior, focus inward.
Questions to consider:
What belief was activated?
What fear was touched?
What memory does this remind me of?
Why does this matter so much to me?
This shift transforms the experience from blame to self-discovery.
4. Separate Facts From Stories
The event and the story you tell yourself about the event are not the same thing.
Example:
Fact: Someone interrupted you.
Story: They do not respect me.
The emotional reaction usually attaches itself to the story, not merely the event. Challenge assumptions and consider alternative explanations before reacting.
5. Own Your Emotional Experience
Practice saying:
“I feel hurt.”
“I feel anxious.”
“I feel angry.”
“I am responsible for how I respond.”
Avoid statements such as:
“You made me angry.”
“You ruined my day.”
“You caused my anxiety.”
Others influence us, but they do not control our responses.
6. Develop Healthy Coping Skills
The National Institutes of Health recommends evidence-based wellness practices that help individuals manage emotional stress and build resilience, including mindfulness, physical activity, social support, adequate sleep, gratitude practices, and healthy self-care routines. [nih.gov], [nimh.nih.gov]
Helpful coping strategies include:
Mindfulness
Learn to observe emotions without immediately reacting.
Deep Breathing
Slow breathing helps calm the body’s stress response.
Journaling
Writing allows emotions to be processed instead of suppressed.
Exercise
Physical activity helps regulate mood and reduce stress.
Meditation
Meditation increases emotional awareness and self-control.
Therapy
Professional support can help uncover deeper emotional patterns.
Social Support
Healthy relationships provide perspective and encouragement. [apa.org], [nih.gov]
7. Reframe the Trigger as a Teacher
Instead of asking: “Why did they do this to me?”
Ask: “What is this reaction teaching me about myself?”
Every trigger contains information. It may point toward:
An insecurity
An unmet need
A fear
A limiting belief
An unresolved wound
Growth begins when curiosity replaces blame.
8. Practice Accountability Daily
Accountability is a skill. Each day ask yourself:
What triggered me today?
How did I respond?
What could I have done differently?
What lesson did I learn?
Over time these reflections strengthen emotional resilience and self-awareness.
Conclusion
Being triggered is part of the human experience. Everyone encounters situations that evoke strong emotions. The presence of a trigger is not a character flaw, nor is it proof that someone else is responsible for your emotional state. Healing begins when we stop viewing triggers as evidence of other people’s failures and start viewing them as opportunities for self-examination and growth.
You may not be responsible for every experience that shaped you, but you are responsible for how you manage your reactions today. The moment you stop blaming others for your triggers is the moment you begin reclaiming your power. You are not responsible for what happened to you in the past. You are responsible for what you do with it now. Growth occurs when accountability becomes stronger than blame, and self-awareness becomes stronger than reactivity.
About the Author
John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW-S
Executive Director | Clinical Social Worker | Community Advocate
For more than two decades, John S. Collier has dedicated his career to strengthening individuals, families, and communities through compassionate behavioral healthcare, leadership, and advocacy. As the founder and Executive Director of Southeast Kentucky Behavioral Health, LLC, he has played a significant role in expanding access to mental health, case management, and community-based support services throughout Eastern Kentucky.
A graduate of the University of Kentucky College of Social Work, Mr. Collier earned his Master of Social Work degree in 2004 and subsequently became a Licensed Clinical Social Worker in the Commonwealth of Kentucky. Throughout his career, he has remained committed to serving individuals across the lifespan, including children, adolescents, adults, older adults, couples, and families.
Professional Leadership
As Executive Director of Southeast Kentucky Behavioral Health, Mr. Collier oversees a growing multidisciplinary behavioral health organization providing outpatient therapy, targeted case management, positive behavior support services, and community-based supports. He also maintains clinical and supervisory responsibilities, serving in multiple leadership and professional capacities within the organization, including clinical supervision, positive behavior support, staff development, program development, and community outreach.
His professional work includes:
Clinical psychotherapy and behavioral health treatment
Positive Behavior Support planning and consultation
Clinical supervision and staff development
Community mental health advocacy
Program development and organizational leadership
Behavioral assessment and intervention planning
Service coordination for individuals with complex behavioral and developmental needs
Clinical Philosophy
Mr. Collier’s clinical philosophy centers on treating the whole person rather than merely addressing symptoms. He utilizes evidence-based approaches while emphasizing dignity, respect, empowerment, and individualized treatment planning. His work incorporates cognitive-behavioral principles, trauma-informed care, person-centered planning, family involvement, and strengths-based interventions designed to help individuals reach their fullest potential.
He is particularly passionate about increasing access to behavioral healthcare in rural communities and ensuring individuals receive services that are practical, meaningful, and tailored to their unique strengths and needs.
Community Involvement
Beyond his clinical work, Mr. Collier has demonstrated a strong commitment to community engagement throughout his career. His efforts have included public education, outreach initiatives, advocacy for mental health awareness, and collaboration with schools, healthcare providers, and community organizations. He believes strong communities are built when mental health services are accessible, stigma is reduced, and individuals are empowered to succeed.
Author, Educator, and Advocate
In addition to his clinical and leadership roles, Mr. Collier has contributed to professional and community discussions through writing and education. Publicly available information indicates that he has been a published author in areas related to mental health, Freemasonry, and poetry. His work reflects a commitment to personal growth, community service, and the advancement of behavioral health knowledge.
Personal Values
Throughout his professional journey, Mr. Collier has remained grounded in the core values of social work: service, integrity, competence, dignity and worth of every person, the importance of human relationships, and social justice. Colleagues, clients, and community partners know him for his commitment to helping others achieve meaningful and lasting change while fostering an environment of compassion, respect, and accountability. This dedication continues to guide both his leadership and clinical practice today.
Contact Information
Southeast Kentucky Behavioral Health, LLC
202 West 7th Street
Suite 200
London, Kentucky 40741
Phone: (606) 657-0532 Ext. 101
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From author and licensed clinical social worker John S. Collier comes a powerful new series of books exploring love, loss, faith, emotional healing, and personal growth. With honesty shaped by both professional experience and a life marked by hardship, perseverance, and grace, Collier invites readers to examine the hidden places of the heart. Each book blends practical wisdom with vivid metaphor, offering encouragement to those learning to release the past, rebuild their identity, establish healthier relationships, and trust God through uncertain seasons. This is more than a collection of books—it is a journey from merely surviving life’s storms to discovering the strength, purpose, and peace needed to live fully again.
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Expressions from Behind His Silence: Valume 3: Thwe Mercy of Open Hands
Some endings do not arrive with anger. They arrive with open hands.
The Mercy of Open Hands, Volume Three of the Expressions from Behind His Silence series, follows a man through heartbreak, acceptance, forgiveness, and the difficult grace of release.
Through intimate, reflective poetry, John S. Collier explores what it means to love someone without possessing them, to carry grief without becoming bitter, and to let go without denying that the love was real.
These poems speak to the moment when holding on begins to wound more than losing—and to the quiet courage required to choose peace.
This collection is for anyone learning that surrender is not weakness, forgiveness does not erase the past, and sometimes the most loving thing the heart can do is open its hands.
Human beings possess a remarkable ability to think, reason, and seek understanding. One of the most common responses to unexpected, unpleasant, or confusing situations is the question, “Why?” Whether faced with disappointing news, organizational changes, personal loss, conflict, or circumstances beyond our control, many people experience a strong desire to understand the reasoning behind events. While seeking understanding is often beneficial, the persistent need for explanations can sometimes prevent us from accepting reality and moving forward.
Psychological research suggests that individuals naturally seek certainty because uncertainty creates discomfort. Our minds are wired to search for patterns, causes, and explanations that help us make sense of our experiences. However, there are situations where no explanation will fully satisfy us, and our continued search for answers can become an obstacle to healing, growth, and resilience (Kruglanski & Webster, 1996; American Psychological Association, 2018).
The Human Need for Closure
Social psychologist Arie Kruglanski introduced the concept of the Need for Cognitive Closure, which refers to an individual’s desire for a firm answer and an aversion to ambiguity and uncertainty. People with a high need for closure often feel uncomfortable when questions remain unanswered and may seek explanations even when those explanations do not change the outcome (Kruglanski & Webster, 1996).
The American Psychological Association defines the need for closure as the motivation to achieve finality and certainty in decisions, judgments, and life events. Individuals with a strong need for closure often struggle to tolerate situations where information is incomplete or unavailable (APA Dictionary of Psychology, 2018).
From an evolutionary perspective, this tendency makes sense. Early humans benefited from quickly identifying threats and predicting outcomes. The ability to understand cause and effect increased survival. Today, however, our brains often apply the same instincts to complex social and emotional situations where certainty may not be possible.
Why We Resist Accepting What We Do Not Understand
When we hear information that challenges our beliefs, expectations, or desires, accepting it without explanation can feel emotionally threatening. Several psychological processes contribute to this reaction.
Cognitive Dissonance
Leon Festinger’s theory of cognitive dissonance suggests that individuals experience psychological discomfort when they hold conflicting beliefs or when reality contradicts their expectations. Seeking an explanation allows a person to reduce that discomfort by creating a coherent narrative (Festinger, 1957).
For example, if an employee is informed that a policy has changed, they may immediately ask why. While the explanation may provide useful context, the deeper motivation is often the desire to reduce the tension created by the unexpected change.
Intolerance of Uncertainty
Research indicates that uncertainty itself can trigger anxiety and emotional distress. When individuals do not understand the reasons behind an event, they may imagine alternative explanations, repeatedly analyze the situation, or engage in rumination. Ironically, this often increases emotional suffering rather than reducing it (Anderson et al., 2019).
The Illusion of Control
People frequently believe that understanding “why” gives them greater control over circumstances. While knowledge can certainly enhance decision-making, many life events remain beyond our influence regardless of how thoroughly we understand them. In these circumstances, seeking more information may create the illusion of control while delaying acceptance.
When Understanding Is Helpful
This article is not suggesting that people should never ask questions or seek clarification. Understanding is often essential.
Knowing why can:
Improve decision-making.
Promote learning and growth.
Strengthen communication.
Prevent misunderstandings.
Increase trust and transparency.
Reduce unnecessary anxiety.
In healthcare, counseling, leadership, and education, providing a rationale often increases cooperation and engagement. Individuals are more likely to embrace change when they understand its purpose.
Therefore, the goal is not to eliminate the question “why,” but to recognize when seeking additional explanations ceases to be productive.
The Cost of Excessive Explanation-Seeking
Problems arise when individuals become emotionally dependent on obtaining explanations before they can move forward.
Common signs include:
Repeatedly revisiting the same issue.
Obsessing over unanswered questions.
Refusing to accept decisions without complete agreement.
Delaying action until every detail is understood.
Seeking reassurance from multiple sources without relief.
In counseling, many clients discover that even after receiving explanations, they continue searching for more answers. What they truly desire is not information but emotional comfort.
Unfortunately, explanations cannot always provide peace. Peace often comes from acceptance.
The Power of Acceptance
Acceptance does not mean approval, agreement, or surrender. Acceptance simply means acknowledging reality as it exists.
Psychological approaches such as Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT) emphasize that emotional well-being improves when individuals stop fighting reality and begin focusing on actions aligned with their values (Hayes, Strosahl, & Wilson, 1999).
Acceptance allows us to shift from questions such as:
“Why did this happen?”
“Why did they do that?”
“Why wasn’t this fair?”
to more productive questions such as:
“What can I learn from this?”
“How should I respond?”
“What is within my control?”
These questions move us from passive reflection to active growth.
Learning to Move Forward Without All the Answers
Maturity often involves developing the ability to tolerate uncertainty.
Life presents many situations where explanations are incomplete, unavailable, or unsatisfying:
Organizational decisions.
Relationship endings.
Loss and grief.
Medical diagnoses.
Economic hardships.
Personal disappointments.
Waiting for perfect understanding before moving forward can leave a person emotionally stuck.
Instead, emotional resilience develops when individuals recognize that acceptance does not require full understanding.
Some of life’s greatest growth occurs when we choose to move forward despite unanswered questions.
Conclusion
The desire to know “why” is a normal and deeply human response. It reflects our need for certainty, predictability, and understanding. In many situations, seeking explanations is valuable and necessary. However, there comes a point when the endless pursuit of answers becomes more harmful than helpful.
The healthiest individuals are not necessarily those who always find explanations. They are often those who have learned to distinguish between what can be understood and what must simply be accepted.
Sometimes the most powerful words we can say are:
“I may never fully understand this, but I can still move forward.”
That mindset transforms uncertainty from an obstacle into an opportunity for growth.
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About the Author
John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW-S is a licensed clinical social worker supervisor, behavioral health executive, and mental health professional with extensive experience in psychotherapy, community mental health, behavioral support services, and organizational leadership. He serves as Executive Director of Southeast Kentucky Behavioral Health, LLC, where he oversees multidisciplinary behavioral health programs serving individuals and families throughout Kentucky.
Mr. Collier specializes in clinical assessment, treatment planning, behavioral intervention, cognitive-behavioral approaches, acceptance-based interventions, and leadership development within behavioral healthcare organizations. His writing focuses on the intersection of psychology, human behavior, resilience, personal growth, and practical applications of evidence-based mental health principles.
Drawing from both clinical practice and organizational leadership, John seeks to translate complex psychological concepts into meaningful insights that help individuals, families, and professionals navigate life’s challenges with greater understanding and purpose.
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Deciding to file for divorce can be one of the most emotionally complicated decisions a person ever makes. Even when the relationship has become unhealthy, chronically conflictual, emotionally exhausting, or destructive, leaving can produce grief, doubt, fear, and guilt. Research has specifically identified guilt toward a former spouse as a meaningful part of the divorce experience, associated with factors such as regret, compassion, perceived responsibility for the separation, and psychological functioning (Baum et al., 2012). (PubMed)
But there is an important difference between feeling guilty because you care about another person’s pain and being made to feel guilty so that you will reconsider a decision made necessary by an ongoing pattern of harmful behavior.
Sometimes the partner who desperately wants to save the marriage focuses almost entirely on the divorce itself:
“How can you do this to me?”
“You’re destroying our family.”
“You’re giving up on us.”
“After everything I’ve done for you, you’re just walking away.”
“You’re the one choosing divorce, not me.”
Technically, one spouse may be the person who signs and files the paperwork. Psychologically and relationally, however, that does not necessarily mean that person single-handedly created the conditions that ended the marriage.
Sometimes filing for divorce is not the beginning of the problem.
It is the response to a problem that has existed for a very long time.
The Difference Between Filing for Divorce and Causing the Marriage to Fail
When someone says, “You’re the one who filed,” the statement may be factually accurate while leaving out most of the story.
The more important questions may be:
What happened before the filing?
What conversations took place?
What promises were repeatedly made and broken?
Were boundaries repeatedly violated?
Was there chronic dishonesty?
Was there infidelity?
Were there repeated episodes of yelling, humiliation, intimidation, manipulation, neglect, controlling behavior, substance-related chaos, financial irresponsibility, or emotional abandonment?
Did one spouse repeatedly communicate that something needed to change?
Were opportunities for counseling, reconciliation, or behavioral change offered?
And, perhaps most importantly:
Did the person who is now devastated by the divorce take the problems seriously before divorce became a reality?
A divorce petition does not tell the entire story of a marriage.
Imagine someone living in a house where the roof has leaked for years. They repeatedly point to the water damage and say, “We have to repair this.” Their partner minimizes the problem, promises to fix it later, becomes defensive whenever it is mentioned, or blames them for complaining.
Eventually the damage becomes unbearable, and the person moves out.
It would be strange to say:
“You destroyed our home because you moved.”
Moving did not create the leaking roof.
It was a response to living underneath it.
Relationships can work similarly.
“You’re Leaving Me” Can Distract From “Why Are You Leaving?”
A spouse facing divorce understandably experiences powerful emotions. They may feel abandoned, frightened, angry, embarrassed, rejected, or devastated. Those feelings deserve compassion.
But emotions and accountability are two different things.
A person can genuinely be heartbroken that you are leaving while simultaneously refusing to acknowledge the behavior that contributed to your decision.
That distinction matters.
Instead of asking:
“What did I do that brought our marriage to this point?”
they may ask:
“How could you do this to me?”
Instead of saying:
“I understand why you no longer trust me.”
they may say:
“You never gave me another chance.”
Instead of acknowledging:
“My behavior hurt you repeatedly.”
they may say:
“You’re throwing away everything we’ve built.”
The focus subtly shifts.
The conversation stops being about the pattern of behavior that damaged the relationship and becomes a trial concerning the person who finally decided they could no longer live with that pattern.
This type of blame reversal is particularly concerning when it occurs alongside manipulation, intimidation, gaslighting, coercive control, or other forms of emotional abuse. The National Domestic Violence Hotline identifies blaming a partner for one’s own unhealthy or abusive behavior as a warning sign of emotional abuse. It also identifies manipulation, humiliation, intimidation, excessive jealousy, monitoring, isolation, and gaslighting among behaviors that can constitute emotional abuse. (The Hotline)
Not every spouse who says something unfair during a painful divorce is abusive. Divorce brings intense emotions, and people sometimes speak defensively out of grief. What matters is whether there is a persistent pattern of avoiding responsibility while pressuring the other person to assume it.
Guilt Can Become a Powerful Form of Control
Guilt itself is not unhealthy.
Healthy guilt can tell us that we violated our values or harmed another person. It can motivate us to apologize, repair damage, and behave differently.
Manipulated guilt operates differently.
It communicates:
“Your decision to protect yourself is proof that you are hurting me.”
Research examining abusive relationship dynamics has found that shame and guilt can sometimes be deliberately elicited as mechanisms of coercive control. A qualitative study by Culos-Reed and colleagues examined what the researchers called “shame-to-guilt” behaviors—manipulative strategies through which abusive partners trigger shame and guilt in their partners. The researchers identified tactics involving emotional manipulation, threats, parenting, health concerns, religious values, and other emotionally significant areas. (PubMed)
This does not mean that every expression of sadness or guilt during divorce is manipulation.
A spouse is allowed to say:
“I don’t want this divorce.”
They are allowed to cry.
They are allowed to grieve.
They are allowed to wish you would reconsider.
They are even allowed to believe that divorce is the wrong decision.
What becomes problematic is when their emotional pain is repeatedly turned into evidence that you are morally obligated to remain in the relationship regardless of what the relationship has been doing to you.
Compassion does not require continued participation in an unhealthy relationship.
When Accountability Gets Replaced by Blame
Accountability sounds different from guilt-based pressure.
Accountability says:
“I hurt you.”
“I understand that my behavior had consequences.”
“I should have listened when you told me things needed to change.”
“I wish I had handled things differently.”
“I don’t want the marriage to end, but I understand that my actions contributed to where we are.”
“I’m going to work on myself whether you return or not.”
Blame sounds more like:
“Look what you’re doing to me.”
“You’re ruining everyone’s lives.”
“You’re selfish.”
“You’re breaking up the family.”
“If you really loved me, you wouldn’t leave.”
“You’re abandoning me when I need you most.”
The difference is significant.
Accountability examines one’s own behavior. Blame attempts to transfer responsibility for its consequences.
The National Domestic Violence Hotline makes a similar distinction when discussing apologies in abusive relationships. An apology that essentially says, “I’m sorry, but you made me do it,” shifts responsibility rather than accepting it. Genuine accountability requires recognizing one’s choices and taking meaningful steps to change future behavior. (The Hotline)
“But They Say They’ll Change Now”
This can be one of the most emotionally difficult parts of leaving.
Perhaps you spent months—or years—asking for changes.
You asked for communication.
You asked for honesty.
You asked them to stop yelling.
You asked them to seek treatment.
You asked for counseling.
You asked for affection.
You asked them to respect boundaries.
You explained how badly you were hurting.
Nothing produced sustained change.
Then you filed for divorce.
Suddenly there are tears, apologies, promises, therapy appointments, flowers, long messages, declarations of love, and statements such as:
“I finally understand.”
The natural question becomes:
Why did it take losing me for my pain to matter?
That question does not have a simple answer.
Sometimes the threat of losing a marriage genuinely awakens someone to the seriousness of their behavior. People can change, and genuine transformation is possible.
But urgency is not the same thing as transformation.
Promises made when consequences finally arrive should be evaluated according to sustained behavior over time, not simply according to their emotional intensity.
Accountability is demonstrated rather than announced.
The Trap of Remembering Only the Good
Guilt often becomes stronger when separation begins because distance can change how we remember a relationship.
You remember vacations.
Christmas mornings.
Inside jokes.
Their smile.
The day you met.
Your wedding.
The children being born.
The dreams you once shared.
Those memories are real.
But so are the other memories.
A painful marriage does not have to have been painful every minute to have become unhealthy.
This is particularly important in relationships involving abuse or coercive control. Recent psychological research describes how targets of partner abuse can become psychologically entrapped partly through processes of minimizing, justifying, normalizing, or reframing harmful behavior. Such processes can make evaluating the relationship-versus-self-preservation decision extraordinarily difficult (Arriaga et al., 2026). (PubMed)
Earlier qualitative research similarly found that self-blame can influence how people interpret intimate partner aggression, including situations in which partners effectively “turn the tables” and shift responsibility toward the person experiencing the harmful behavior. (PubMed Central (PMC))
You do not have to erase the good memories to acknowledge the bad ones.
Both can be true:
“We had beautiful moments.”
and
“I cannot continue living this way.”
You Can Love Someone and Still Leave
One of the most damaging misconceptions surrounding divorce is the idea that leaving proves you never loved the person.
Sometimes people leave precisely because they spent years trying not to.
They stayed through disappointment.
They forgave.
They hoped.
They rationalized.
They waited.
They believed promises.
They tried again.
Eventually they recognized that love was no longer enough to compensate for what was happening inside the relationship.
Love does not automatically create emotional safety.
Love does not create accountability.
Love does not cure addiction.
Love does not stop repeated infidelity.
Love does not make someone communicate.
Love does not eliminate controlling behavior.
Love does not force another person to seek help.
Love does not require accepting unlimited harm.
And loving someone does not obligate you to remain married to them.
You Can Feel Guilty Without Being Guilty
This may be the most important distinction.
Feeling guilty and actually being responsible for wrongdoing are not the same thing.
Research confirms that guilt toward a former spouse is common enough during divorce to be specifically measured as a psychological construct. (PubMed)
You may feel guilty because your spouse is crying.
You may feel guilty because your children are upset.
You may feel guilty when you see the empty side of the closet.
You may feel guilty when your spouse tells you they cannot imagine life without you.
You may feel guilty because you made vows you genuinely intended to keep.
You may feel guilty because part of you still loves them.
None of those feelings automatically establishes that leaving is wrong.
Sometimes guilt is simply the emotional cost of making a painful decision that affects someone you care about.
A useful question is not simply:
“Do I feel guilty?”
Ask instead:
“What exactly am I guilty of?”
If the answer is, “I am guilty because they are hurting,” examine that belief carefully.
Causing disappointment is not automatically wrongdoing.
Setting a boundary is not automatically cruelty.
Ending a relationship you can no longer participate in is not automatically betrayal.
And another person’s distress does not automatically create an obligation for you to reverse your decision.
Do Not Confuse Their Consequences With Your Cruelty
When unhealthy behavior continues long enough, consequences eventually appear.
The consequence might be separation.
It might be loss of trust.
It might be emotional distance.
It might ultimately be divorce.
The person experiencing those consequences may sincerely dislike them. But disliking a consequence does not mean the consequence was created maliciously by the other spouse.
This distinction becomes especially important when psychological abuse has occurred. Research has associated psychological abuse with significant mental-health consequences, including symptoms of depression and posttraumatic stress, even after accounting for other forms of partner violence. (PubMed)
More recent research on psychological abuse also emphasizes potential harms involving diminished agency, loss of self-belief, and feelings of entrapment. (PubMed)
Therefore, repeatedly telling someone that they are selfish or cruel for leaving can be particularly powerful when that person’s confidence in their own judgment has already been weakened.
When Guilt Continues After Separation
Leaving does not necessarily end unhealthy relational dynamics.
A review of 48 studies concerning post-separation abuse found that harmful behavior can continue after relationships end and may involve psychological, legal, economic, and other forms of abuse, including using children as part of the conflict. (PubMed)
That makes boundaries especially important during high-conflict separation.
If every conversation becomes another attempt to make you defend the divorce, it may become necessary to stop debating the decision.
You do not have to repeatedly prosecute your case before your spouse.
You can communicate practical matters without endlessly defending why you left.
A boundary might sound like:
“I understand that you disagree with my decision and that you’re hurting. I am not going to continue arguing about whether I am allowed to leave. I am willing to discuss the practical matters we need to resolve respectfully.”
That is not necessarily coldness.
It is a boundary.
Separate Compassion From Responsibility
You can have compassion for your spouse’s suffering without assuming responsibility for eliminating it.
You can say:
“I know you’re hurting.”
without saying:
“Therefore I must stay.”
You can say:
“I’m sorry our marriage ended this way.”
without saying:
“Everything was my fault.”
You can say:
“I wish things had been different.”
without saying:
“I should return to the same circumstances that caused me to leave.”
Mature compassion allows two realities to coexist:
Their pain matters.
Your well-being matters too.
Look at Patterns, Not the Last Conversation
When guilt overwhelms you, return to the history of the relationship rather than evaluating everything according to your spouse’s reaction to divorce.
Ask yourself:
What was happening six months before I decided to leave?
What was happening two years before?
What had I repeatedly asked to change?
What boundaries had I communicated?
Were promises followed by sustained behavioral changes?
Did I feel emotionally safe expressing concerns?
Was I becoming healthier or less healthy inside the relationship?
Was I staying because the relationship was improving, or because I was afraid of hurting the other person?
If nothing changed for another five years, would I willingly choose this marriage again?
Those questions move the focus away from the emotional intensity of the present moment and toward the actual pattern that produced the decision.
Divorce Does Not Require a Villain
There is another important caution.
Not every failed marriage involves an abuser and a victim.
Sometimes two basically decent people develop destructive patterns together.
Sometimes incompatibility becomes impossible to overcome.
Sometimes both partners caused significant harm.
Sometimes one person contributed much more heavily than the other.
And sometimes one person’s behavior clearly became abusive, coercive, or dangerous.
Avoiding inappropriate guilt does not require rewriting your spouse as entirely evil or yourself as entirely innocent.
A healthier position is:
“I can acknowledge my mistakes without accepting responsibility for yours.”
That is accountability without self-erasure.
When There Has Been Emotional Abuse or Coercive Control
If the marriage has involved intimidation, threats, stalking, coercive control, physical violence, sexual coercion, severe financial control, threats involving children, or threats of self-harm intended to prevent separation, ordinary divorce advice may not be sufficient.
Separation can sometimes be a particularly vulnerable period in abusive relationships. Research on post-separation abuse demonstrates that abusive tactics may persist or evolve after a relationship ends. (PubMed)
In those circumstances, decisions concerning communication, meetings, housing, finances, children, and legal proceedings should be made with appropriate professional support and attention to safety.
The Question That Changes Everything
When your spouse says:
“How could you do this to me?”
you may find yourself drowning in guilt.
But there is another question worth asking:
“What happened between us that brought me to the point where divorce felt necessary?”
That question does not remove your responsibility.
It puts responsibility back into its proper context.
Marriage is a relationship.
Divorce paperwork may have one person’s signature on the first page, but the history behind that signature can contain years of experiences.
Filing is an action.
The reasons behind filing are the story.
Do not confuse the two.
Final Thoughts
The person who files for divorce is not automatically the person who destroyed the marriage.
Sometimes filing is the final acknowledgment that something has already become unsustainable.
Your spouse may genuinely love you.
They may genuinely be devastated.
They may genuinely wish you would stay.
Their feelings deserve to be recognized.
But their pain does not erase the history that led you here.
Healthy accountability requires everyone involved to examine their own choices. You can examine yours. You can apologize for the things you genuinely did wrong. You can learn from your mistakes. You can treat your spouse with dignity during the divorce.
But you do not have to carry their portion of the responsibility simply because they refuse to pick it up.
Perhaps the healthiest sentence a person leaving a destructive marriage can eventually learn to say is:
“I am responsible for how I leave. I am not responsible for pretending there was no reason I needed to.”
That distinction can be the beginning of moving from guilt toward clarity—and eventually toward peace.
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About the Author
John S. Collier, MSW, LCSW-S is a licensed clinical social worker, mental health professional, writer, and educator whose work focuses on relationships, emotional wellness, trauma, behavioral health, personal growth, and the complicated human experiences surrounding marriage, separation, grief, and major life transitions.
Through his professional background in social work and behavioral health, Collier approaches relationship struggles from both a clinical and deeply human perspective. His writing emphasizes personal accountability while recognizing that healthy relationships require responsibility from both partners. He encourages readers to distinguish between genuine remorse and destructive self-blame, between forgiveness and permission, and between loving another person and sacrificing one’s emotional well-being to maintain a relationship that has become unhealthy.
His work seeks to translate psychological and relationship concepts into practical language that ordinary people can apply to their everyday lives. Whether addressing divorce, depression, anxiety, trauma, family relationships, personal boundaries, or emotional healing, his goal is to help individuals better understand their experiences and move toward healthier, more intentional lives.
This article is intended for educational purposes and is not a substitute for individualized mental-health, legal, or medical advice.
